STPM is Over, F6 is Over

Finally hav a lil free time to write a post,wanna giv some sentiments and reflections on my STPM...
i thought , am i taking a wrong path now..
y i din study on the past ?
yay, regret now
noe tat i can do better , 2 times better than now , but i hav failed ,
n there is no second chance ald ,
so start to blame myself..
STPM seem as one of the turning point in my life , decides my future
i watched on my own test paper , i brood : i can do this question if i hav read the notes on this chapter ,
but now , no no no!!
in fact , i hav not enough time to read those notes ,
bcuz always lounged the days away , waive on study
didnt concentrate in class at all ><
properly i should accept consequences resulted by my acts
i'm really frightened of the STPM result now..
i scared that if i couldnt achieve a satisfactory CGPA ,
unable attend a good university and
take the course in vision ...
so,how bout my career ? my life in the future..
afraid of many things if i cant do wat i must do
i may dismaying many ppl ,
i hav no confidence at all
And i cant say any more words at this moment ,
a time when all things hav end ,
struggle is also a wastage
the last thing i 'm able to do is only face the fact....

listen this nice song which accompany with me in these few days
“暗示（方炯镔 vs 弦子 ）”

FIGHTING fighting~~

STPM hav started,4 down and 4 to go~

4 subjects which i am taking are Biology, chemistry, math, Pa

Personal Ranking


chem ****

bio ****

pa *

math **

phys ***

( **** most favoured subject)

Each of them consists of 2 papers

so,de others 4 papers i gonna sit on coming two weeks times included:

Maths 2--- Bio 1--- Pa 1--- Chem 1

my STPM examination will cum to the end on 10/12/2009

(my dear fren fast fast date me out larhx~XP)

huhu,dis time reli scared ady, bcoz i still got bulks of notes havent read(even

hav a look or touch on tat paper ==)

try my hardest? (no lehx.. u cn c tat i'm here still tag wif pc & writting a post)

btw,i din hav time to sleep wor, sacrificed by study...

if giving will yield the fruits of success,

i am willing to put all my rest time aside!!

jz feel nervous, causing my brain in a state of emptiness ,

may i hav a piece of chocolate cake now?

try to relaxe when facing this big problems , a crucial

and decisive point for my future

thus,put up my handfree listen & listen to music,

my life cant without music~

recently addicted to lady gaga 's new album 《The Fame Monster》

her 'bad romance' , 'so happy if i could die' , 'Alejandro' ....

all nice^^

Especially "Bad Romance",mv of this song rock!

her performance electrified me~

Finally, better go back to my study now ==

book mass here covered 1/4 of my total books only....

studying....

funny maths found on internet XD

lucky charm , both gifts are contributed by my beloved Jeffrey lee

爱๑沉沦

那一声轰雷，是无情的黑洞，

将多少人幻想里那一双带着怜悯的眼神瓦解，心痛的呐喊掩没过去。

无法不消极，消极得太悲情。

那一触闪电，是冷漠的银河，

慢镜头中的我瞳孔逐渐放大，整个世界好像突然凝结了一样，

刹那间看清身边无数个人的面孔。

无法不彷徨，彷徨得太激情。

这一场洪雨，淅沥雨点刻画我在墨黑四周里的身影越缩越矮，

渺小得多一滴雨都将我吞噬掉。

忽载忽浮，快要没顶之时，我伸出的手，能否抓住一点什么…

那些又是什么?……

而尊严又被遗忘在哪一场风雨里？浑浑噩噩，喘息苟且偷生。

当伤痕的模样都看不清楚，那么一个没有心灵的人，又算什么呢？

当绝望的感觉都感受不到，那么一个没有灵魂的人，又算什么呢？

今天又是风雨如晦，雨一直下一直下，风一直刮一直刮。

心冷了，好像妈为我煮的那碗面摆在桌上多久了，从最初的热烟腾腾到现在，

都冷了……

承受不起那份简单的爱，因为不配，总是在不以为然间做出伤害；

我太笨，因为不羁，总是以为事情可以很完美。

可是她还是放纵，然后我骄纵，

到最后谁又在这一场大雨里伤痕累累;

落下的雨在溅起水花之时，似一地碎落的心。

我又在哪一天终于懂得她是我的避风港。？

她给我温暖给我安全感；我信任他，依赖他，爱他！

这趟风雨兼程，我不知道可不可以到达目的地，只是希望在路途中，

她也是信任我，依赖我，爱我。

一点早餐

最近睡觉的时间大错乱，平常假期没特别事应该

凌晨一点到十二点中午，

今天是早上四点才睡可是七点多就起床了，

这是我前天睡觉时间的五倍了…

总之现在睡眠变得很不正常，整个人也变得躁郁。（超级）

家里就剩下我一个人，拔鼻他们出去工作，

早上例常做了家务后就闷得发慌，

所以就黏住电脑啦~

bbs，fb，blog，msn---------

两点酱才去找东西吃咯，或许约了朋友还是自己打包回家，

更懒就甘愿在家里煮instant mee >.<

虽然我每天起床不定时，

可是我吃早餐的时间都蛮准的，通常一点。

我不喜欢一大早就吃早餐，

吃完有点想吐，可能肠胃不舒服，

而且到了一点我又会再吃一次，

感觉doubled了一天吃两次早餐。

所以约朋友都是一点那段时间，

刚好吃了早餐然后就四处乱逛，这样感觉就对了！

以前（升高中)就宅丫，

很少很少会跟朋友一起吃早餐，都是自己一个人

呼呼呼，想起觉的有些可怜

在还没习惯之前，很快就有朋友来约我，

或者自己去约人咯，总想找个人来吵吵自己。

有人陪吃的早餐真的很不错耶，我真的很怕一个人寂寞来袭……

希望以后的日子都有朋友相伴

陪我哈拉聊天，更要陪我吃一点份早餐

因为

“真正的好朋友

并不是在一起就有聊不完的话题

而是在一起 就算不说话

也不会感到尴尬”

（我吃早餐的时候是不说话的=.=)

好啦，朋友们，认识呢们真好~~

muet down

de story began with a sad sad situation,

i failed to take a desired band for my muet paper(April)

*muet=malaysian university english test

hoped to get band 4, in fact, i can only achieved 3

the 1st english word which i hate is "retake",

bcoz it's appeared repeatedly, at an annoying rate

in my life everyone is talking to me, even myself

during dis 250+ days, hard time interval >.<

Q: do u "retake"?

A: i hav "retake"!

nid to pay extra RM60 in order to sit dis exam again

this means i spend RM120 on muet paper

heart feel so pain T.T , dis d'' subject!!

2nd chance n the least one is given today,november

test is held on de morning,went to school with a lil tired

last night slept lately as usual(researches proved tat sleep so much no good wor,wakakakaz)

finish paper around 1p.m,move out from hall with no emo

dunnoe want to feel happy or sad at dat scene

sound from internal decoder is"i'm even dunnoe wat i hav done"

better or worse?@.@

huhu..wait de result lor~nothing more i cn do now.

hopefully can get at least band 4 dis time(MUST)

if not....dun dare to imagine...

TIME to PLAY?

erm, today woke up at 11.+ a.m.

last night received a msg from yael,

dated wif him ady

and a girl is accompanied ..

we decided to hav breakfast 2gether~

actually i fixed de time around 1p.m,

so i just spend my free time by tagging to de computer lorhx^^

we went to Stadium Indera Mulia,

got a stall at there selling "the nicest wantan mee in ipoh",

i miss dis food so much~

later,me and Yeng(the girl) needed to follow yael

to find his fren at swimming pool side,

before we headed to next destination

yael is shui ren lei gehx, want girls waited for him~

btw,we cn c that got a lot of lengzai lenglui swam there,

they so cool! hehe

then,we went shopping in parade...

n probably we moved into cinema,

watched a new shown movie called "poker king/撲克王"

dis movie not bad,personal rating is 7.5 out of 10 star...

when the show is down 7 p.m ady,

we came back to menglembu

thursday wor,so we r likely go to pasar malam ,

at bandar baru there

i hav buy nothing , just walked for a round~

thx yael treated us popia yo, dis snack quite famous also...

well..today is a breaktime for me before gotta work hard,

thus i enjoy it very much,sleepy mood now..nitez

i am

Probably thru these years, the innocent girl u used to know is no longer that girl.

i catch a vomit feel when some1

jz glance

and simply make a conclusion,
spoke harsly,

inexactly spreading rumors,

seemingly,i hav manage to adopt high IQ and EQ,

for umpteen times.

use to say, nvr judge by my appearance ,

i'm not a girl tat u cn imagine of

not de one of last time , not de one of yesterday

men r owaes change,

changed to make ways,for de reason"i want to***"

eagerness in seeking/approaching a goal ,

or in contrary,bcoz of meaningless and ridiculous notion

frankly,i hav changed, i'm chang-ing

in order to get a better me,

not bcoz of de latter reason!!

nobody in world is perfect
so force to improve ourselves,
polish up bad attitude,reform good personality

dun wan be de one those fren describe wif bad words,

love to make fren,and owaes concern on them

but plz leave a piece of space for me

i do hedgepig lik to protect myself

ones hav taught me to play on de safe side...

deep-heartedly,i hav nvr tryin to do any disgust act

tat is wat i shud be!!

hey,this is wat i am.A mischevious who still knows what she wants in life ultimately.

get out from my life..

9a.m...with a sleepy mood ,read received msg and so suck""

out of my expectation,i hav to carry a difficult stuff by my own

i gotta left behind!!..by someone

helped by nobody!!

i thought it has come to a compromise,

but i forgot my fren's advice

still now, u r wearing a mask

which manage to cover ur real face

the deep-dyed

later, having a test on speaking skills in school

blablabla , dull scene for me

i didnt achieve the level i hav fixed for myself

feel so sad..

and i do receive one more hit from the same riot

disappointed with ''''acts

somehow in front of the teachers

and at the back,in front of us

the contrast is remarkable

a feeling of repugnance or loathing...

i detest all affectation

u r overdone

to us, this looked ridiculous

a person who lie to lie,and thought it was not a lie

faker ,u are a faker!!!

一天零一天

拖着很累的身体刚从学校回来，呼呼

吃了很不错的午餐，

心情好很多。。。

开斋节假期愉快中度过，今天

又要返校麽，

大清早起床真的很塸，

没睡饱就很不爽哦，

这一天下来

还要无端端被两个人

吓了两次，好衰

拿了老师发的考卷

成绩有点雷

我是没踩到拉

只是朋友却常说

不可思议

赫赫。。。

我说

不念书能考到好成绩

才有鬼勒

不过我有难过一下咯

那 然后谢谢朋友们

些无厘头的安慰 : )

好噜

有件高兴的事

就是

我明天

不去上课了

XP

我这个懒人

Gathering 5S1@2007

ya,i remember it was a

tuesday night,around 8pm

yunn yunn fetched me and

later some others til the car

was full , head Jin hao's house

we had a bbq pa yeah..

reached there, steps in and c those old frens

ya, hug first, aged not see them oredi..huhu...

chit chat lorx, ask n listen for news updating~~

turned to oily bbq sxn, thx Jin hao helped me(the chicken wingXD)

after makan besar,we played games....

gambling and sing k,

and hands with packs of snacks,eat,eat,eat...

took photos,well it was a unforgettable night!!

thx Jin hao and his family~

i 'm looking forward to the next gathering~~

A real friend is

someone who walks in when the rest

of the world walks out

...and i am sure you are the one... who walks into

my life and saved me

thx for owaes care for me.. my dear frens

回忆

38 hours nonstop，没做什么发发呆就过了。

半夜三更想找个朋友聊天真的很难，huhu

一点也不觉得睏只好想些事情自己在那边os。。

见到某人心还是会痛一下下（她？）那些难过的记忆也突然闪出来，

我们面对面还是看起来不错，说笑。。。

原来我还是放不下之前发生的事，

以为已经忘了，

可是发生过的自然会留下痕迹，

是这个人啊，曾经背X过我（勿对号入座）

慢慢等时间走远，

我还是把他（她？）当朋友。。

或许以后我成熟点就能够更真心的原谅你

emm，你会看我写的这篇文麽？可以的话告诉我做那些事的原因，厚噗？

写“作文”可以“作” ，部落格完全不同，

第一次这么“公开”谈这件事，

大家看过就算，我也写了就算。。。

藕来噜

wuhuu~今天终于开始写部落格了，

朋友一定快疯了吧，不好意思让你们催了那么多次才甘愿过来。

我这个懒人噢，当我log in 这里的时候我也不敢相信，我是疯了吗？

知道自己这个人写东西超看心情的，高兴明天就交稿，

不高兴就干脆不交啦~

学校的老师也快给我气炸了贝，好讨厌那时的自己（对不起老师）

好鲁，现在竟然都来这里写罗我会乖乖的。。（尽量常update）

emm，

这篇就酱，总之谢谢大家的支持啊....